Am I Too Bad For God?

But the gift is not like the trespass. For if the many died by the trespass of the one man, how much more did God’s grace and the gift that came by the grace of the one man, Jesus Christ, overflow to the many!
— Romans 5:15

Have you ever wondered where God’s grace comes from and why we have it unconditionally? Grace comes to us through God’s undying favor for His Son, so that if we are found in His Son through redemption, we hold the favor of God based on Jesus Christ (John 15:9). Grace is God’s standard already met for us in Jesus Christ. There is nothing that we can do to add to or take away from God’s completely consistent favor toward His Son, who, through the gospel, lives in us.

A unique quality of Grace is that it forces believers, at all times, to look toward Christ for their life and work because they can never do it, even now. 
Grace is not you working, it is God working in you and through you, now. Do you wonder why you're burnt out? Do you wonder why you're so tired after trying and trying to do good things “for” God? You see, it is easy to give and give until you are worn out; it is easy to say, “Lord do with me what you will, I give you all.” But there is a pride in a person that makes it hard to accept God’s grace (even now). Why? Because grace is something we don’t deserve, something we have to receive, not do. If we mess up so bad, we know we don’t deserve God’s grace, and want to do things to get back into His favor. In times like these, we need to come to grips with reality, realize God’s grace still cleanses us, accept it, and move on in His Son, not our mess. If we don’t, we wallow in self-pity, hindering God’s plan for our lives (and that’s exactly what the enemy wants).

God gives grace so you can do His will, Satan gives you lies of guilt so you won’t. Grace enables you, guilt disables you! You are forgiven if you are in Christ, abide in Christ, get up and walk (Ephesians 5:14). Stop talking back to God, saying, “But I’m too bad!” That’s pride! Trust God’s word, accept His grace, and move in it, now.
Oswald Chambers has done a good Job reminding me of the truths of God’s grace. I remember reading and eventually writing what I feel like the Lord continually speaks into my life. The idea is this: there is a defiance in telling God He cannot fix you, that you could never be a saint, and that you are too bad. It is not a “humble position” as the world and many Christians might see it, it is an uneducated or opposing one. Often times humility before God is seen as pride to the world, but just as that is true, humility before the world is often times pride before God. For God has said, you are a saint in Christ and in Christ you are sanctified (1 Thessalonians 3:13; 1 Corinthians 6:11), and who are you to say that you’re not when God has said you are? That is not humility.. That’s pride disguised as humility. Accept God’s grace, know that you are saved and forgiven before God through Jesus, and don’t talk back. (See Oswald Chambers, My Utmost, Nov. 30th)
In regards to God’s grace and its power to overcome and say “no” to sin (Titus 2:11): we must let our natural virtue die! You think you can’t overcome sin in your strength - good you can’t, only God can. Stop “trying" and focus on the life of Christ in you. Stop “working” and let God work! God gives you freedom to be at peace in Christ’s work, so stop trying on your own strength to live virtuously and understand that all the power and virtue of the living God is in you if Christ is in you. Whenever your life fights for control, in the good and the bad, give it up, and work out Jesus. 

Meditate on this verse today: 1 Corinthians 15:10 "But by the grace of God I am what I am, and his grace to me was not without effect. No, I worked harder than all of them—yet not I, but the grace of God that was with me."